...once was blind/now i see...

at brian and jen's house...
here i am. at brian and jenns. its boring... jk. that doesn't work, JENNIFER. She told me to type while holding both shift keys down... bleh. jk this is funny. i can't believe jennifer has a blog now. im hella old. not. i've been working out. worrying about my brothers and my sisters in san jose... what they're up to... do i have to worry though? hope not. church was good today. i woke up super late though... like ten minutes before church... when i was singing/shouting... i lost my voice. my voice is kinda gone right now but candy is soothing it. i hate worries. jen hates stepping on snails. brian says remember when they used to throw snails at each other. im going to find some snails and throw them at the both of them. :P that symbol means "bleh" this was a random blog done at the bedania crib. p.s. when are we going to go swimming in the backyard. its too cold. jen is reading this as i type. she is nosy. and has chubby cheeks. this blog will be her reminder of that fact. that she has fat face cheeks. i love them. dorks. ok. now to find my tumbler/name.

after hiatus
i've missed this particular site. it has records of me at some of the most difficult times in my life. not my adult life. i don't believe i'd started living in that season just yet.

ranting lunatic at 25
this is not a rant. this is a declaration. and this isn't a complaint. it's the outpouring of a weary heart before the feet and throne of a merciful God. we have known love. we have been lost. and yet there is always hope in the face of trouble. this is a record of my day. i spent majority of it after 12pm, out with my sister catherine. shopping for different things that i needed for the rest of my week. i spent a few dollars at these different places and after going to guitar showcase, decided to call it a night. so i'm home for about 3hrs and my dad walks into the room and asks me about my insurance status. he dictates to me that its important that i have insurance since i'm no longer covered by his. he was frustrated and upset that nothing has changed much since the last time we actually talked, which involved a few key things about moving out in a year. this isnt scary to me at all. i've wanted to move out for very long time and not rely on my parents for much of my shelter and food. now is that time. im twentyfive and my priorities are my God before anything else and then my family and friends (within and without the church) then there's education and work. wow. he got me to think harder about what i need to do with the little time i have left. he said, "i dont care about school. just give it up." and also, "if you don't get a full-time job, you're going to enroll in the military.", which was truly disturbing for me. i am not a fan of enlistment. so no. i wont be doing that. im not the same as everyone else. so don't compare to someone that isn't me. i hate when people do that because you can't compare two people or any people like that. i will be my own man and they will be their own as well. so i'm preparing to move out. im coming up with some sort of plan.

book of acts
I finished reading "acts" yesterday. awesome book about apostle paul. im going to try to read a third of romans today. im also praying and fasting this week. so i wont watch anymore tv and ill still eat but drink only water. arite ill update this for myself later. i totally dislike jerry springer's style. but i can't hate the guy. i just think he's too self-absorbed in his own worth, which i can understand in the context of the world's views of popularity. its just sad.

just a game...
i didnt want to go home a loser.
we ended up winning but it felt weird. iono.
tomorrow's another day to make it better. later.

*List of Future Acquisitions*

1. ::Beneath Medicine Tree:: by Copeland
2. ::Clean:: by Shane & Shane
3. ::Upstairs:: by Shane & Shane
4. ::mmhmm:: by Reliant K
5. "Napoleon Dynamite" DVD
6. "Transformers: The Movie" DVD
7. "G.I. Joe: The Movie" DVD
8. "Nacho Libre"